About three or four Saturdays from this upcoming Saturday, I will officially be done with my summer classes. Even though the light at the end of the tunnel is there and I can see it, I still feel like I have an eternity until I reach it or until it gets brighter even.
I wish that I had it in me to stay focused these last couple of weeks, but honestly I don't. I think the main reason for that is because, well, the weather's been so lovely here and I'm tired of being stuck indoors doing homework. However, in order for me to get everything done, I have to do homework from 3:30 to 9:00 everyday; this includes studying hardcore. Another reason I don't feel focused is because I feel overwhelmed about how much I have to finish. It's all listed below
- Hundreds of notecards for Anthropology
- Notecards for Biology
- Study group project for Biology
- Case study project for Anthropology
- 6 chapters to read for Anthropology
- 6+ chapters to read for Biology
- 3 homework assignments to do for Biology
- Conferences for both classes
I'm dreading the projects. I HATE study group projects. I'm dreading even looking at my case study. I'm just dreading it all. But I can do this. I have to do this.
I keep telling myself, "It's only 3 more weeks, only 3 more weeks," but that does no good; because I have an insane amount of work to do in three weeks. My head hurts just thinking about it all.
Another problem I have is the fact that I have it drilled into my head that I NEED to get "perfect" grades in my classes. I have a 3.919 GPA and I really do not want to get B's in either class, simply for the fact that it'll bring my GPA down. I blame this issue on the fact that people told me I would never go to college after I got married. I guess I drilled it in my head to prove them wrong with everything I have. In the end, that's backfired considerably; I feel like a failure if I get worse than an "A" on anything. I hate it.
I'm just drained. And then three weeks after this semester ends, I'll be starting the fall semester and taking 5 classes. Although, I don't think any of English classes and the two Criminal Justice classes I'm taking will be as dense as forensic anthropology, I'm hoping my English classes be just the break from the Criminal Justice world.
BUT. I think I have a game plan to get through all this. While Eric's still at work tonight, I'm going to do as many notecards for forensic anthropology as I can. Then tomorrow, I'm going to look over the study group project information, see what needs to be done and see if I can get organized somehow and get an email out to my group members. After that, I'll be doing the last minute HW assignment my teacher assigned me in Biology and do more notecards. Friday - you guessed it; more notecards.
Then - next week, I'm starting the week off with finishing my project for Anthropology. That will happen on Monday. Then Tuesday hopefully I can get a pretty decent start on the study group project (I hope I hear back from my group members rather quickly). After that, the rest of the week will consist of doing the readings and notecards.
With this game plan, maybe after next week things won't be so difficult. At least I hope.
XOXO,
Megan
Hey girl! I just want to tell you to stay strong! I believe in you! Just take things a day at a time and try to break them into smaller, more manageable pieces. Don't try to think of everything at once, that's why you're getting so overwhelmed! Hang in there and stay strong! You will get everything done and you know what, it doesn't need to be perfect. I understand wanting to prove everyone wrong, but you don't need to do it perfectly. No one is perfect. Don't get me wrong, do your best, but make sure you stay sane in the process.It's good you have a plan. That will help!
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